SydGirl, you're not dammed if you do,at least you shouldn't be. The important thing for crew is to speak up if they have doubts. Those doubts should then be acted apon by the Captain through QF security or whoever is incharge of the loading. When you get a reply that says every thing checks out then you have a duty to go, you are paid to go. You need to have confidence in the companies processes and checks that they have in place. If you don't have that confidence then why fly in their jets every day? If you still don't want to go then thats fine, its your choice, but expect a Don't Come Monday letter. Claret if you had quotes from people who were actually there then it wouldn't be a rumour network would it?