I seem to have had a similar career to training risky. Excluding a suicidal EFATO at Salmesbury when I was 17 my scariest time on the ground was in Basra in 07. It in no way compares to what our combat troops see and do but it effected me for some time.
I'm out now but I spent a lot of time following people from afar courtesy of the likes of 13 and trying to kill them. It's not Hawkinge 1940 but it's how the RAF do business. Neither is it youtube. I can still recall with lightening clarity an SA-3 crew in 03 going about their business as my colleagues and I organised then witnessed their death. The ARMED FORCES are just that and despite the Reds and imminently privitised yellow helicopters, violence is core business. 1997 was the last year the RAF did not kill the enemy.
I wish 13 and their people the best