I sometimes want to crawl into a hole in shame - but I don't.
rodthesod, you can hold your head high with pride my man. It's a disease no different than the big "C" you now find yourself battling. Yours is a wonderful story of a battle fought and won, and I think I can speak for everyone here in saying "Thank you so much for sharing."
A heartfelt blessing for the current battles yourself and wife are facing.