Nice post mate and good to read, but I dont think you really did have the passion.
Those who truely have it will sell their 14 year old sisters virtue to get there. You put the needs of others first which makes you a top bloke.
Stick with whatever pays the bills mate, because this industry is going downhill fast.
I stuck with it and got in but I dont reckon I'll last til retirement. I'm already thinking of leaving it. I'm 37.
I am envious of those who can do it for recreation.