Banger,
I hate to tell you but that is not a very small society you have joined.....there's lots of us carrying that kind of baggage. Keep your sense of humour about it all....that alone will drive the shrinks nuts!
As to being a risk.....that is a bit of a stretch....accident/incident free 1967-2005 and well over 10,000 hours.
That not withstanding....I gladly took my VA Pension and retired from flying.
Must run....the voices are telling me to go clean my guns!