rotorwills
Nobody can stop you feeling more passionately about it but, it’s just a job. It’s not a way of life.
I do no GA flying. I take passengers from A-B and eventually from B-A. When I clock out for days off, I’m not dreaming of being a sky god for a few days.
As much as I’ve argued with the bank, they will not accept passion/hopes/dreams/delusions as mortgage payments