A few years after entering the airlines, I had a particularly hairy event with weather that for all intents and purposes should have caused an accident. But for the grace of god, it did not. There wasn’t much we could have done, it was simply “one of those things”. It “shook” me up for a little while, and I admit to feel a level of discomfort when in similar weather conditions for a while afterward.
I spoke to a few older and wiser pilots about it, also consulted my company. It never bordered on an effect on my ability to perform, but it bothered me.
To cut a long long story short, I ended up booking on to an upset recovery course, refresh things I did in basic training. I haven’t experienced any of the issues since that course. Anyone reading this feeling a bit uneasy, find someone you trust, go spin, loop, roll etc. Etc. Explore your ability and the envelope, absolute game changer.