Forewarned is Forearmed
LL,
You may wish to consider that management routinely monitors PPrune.... I'm sure you know that already.
Would not be too much stretch to make the assessment that a "pilot" with the sort of mental / emotional state that you display could reasonably be considered a risk to flight safety and should not be allowed anywhere near the controls of an aircraft. Once that happens there is no limit to the misery that could be brought to bear against you.
Just sayin ....