I didnt go the CFI route i did some flying elsewhere in the world. lots of hands on stuff. I also didnt bitch and whine as much as you are and did my own research of which there is more than enough info out there. You sound like a typical riddle kid who most people dislike in aviation except for other riddle kids. why not go flight instruct and gain some experience dealing with other people in the cockpit.. youll need it.