Sorry, haven't read the thread entirely, apologize if already said,
Brutale:
At the moment am spending saving for training and having second thought about everything
You either train, either stop. Don't think over a long period of time while training.
You need to focus, and to abandon something in the middle is not the best thing to do.
You made your decision right, you have started already? So you either log out from pprune, go back study your books and get ready for the next flight, either cancel everything.
Secong thoughts during training is not the way to go.
Decision process was supposed to take place before training, and I am quite sure you already went through.
I am a former experienced instructor, and I know the importance of motivation during training, having secong thoughts is the perfect way to lose your money.
Cheers.