Steve, there was a truly excellent 5 page article on pilot anxiety in the June 2006 issue of General Aviation - the AOPA magazine. It would be worth joining just for the back copy. It fully explains the contributing factors and how they can compound to incease the likelyhood of an attack - and of course how to keep it at bay. If AOPA cant help PM me. You clearly love flying so take those demons on!! Manfred