As a loyal pax of UAL in the days of ole and especially for all they've gone through since 9/11....I'm sorry to hear you weren't given more recognition for yrs of service. For all the sacrifices....
A good friend of mine retired from Delta at 55, due to medical, but was such a dedicated "company man" who LOVED his job. Never complained. Barely any recognition when the day came. It bummed him a bit.
I have great admiration for the men and women flying the A/C that I've spent most of my life on. May you find a new life doing something else that drives you....even if it's in a single eng!!
C of F
Happy Holidays to All!!